It’s funny – when you have very small children and babies… the idea of them one day being old enough to do more things on their own seems like something so far away in the distance.
But it’s not always so easy. I tried my best to find my blessings through colic and sleepless nights. But being grateful in the easy times – the times of laughter, of joy and of happiness – well, that’s cake.
It’s the tough times… the times when you are pulled beyond your capability – stretched to your last bit … the times when you feel like you can’t catch your breath, that you need to run – somewhere – anywhere – alone… but you can’t and you would NEVER…
THOSE are the times it is so easy to want to speed up time – those are the times it is very hard to be grateful – to be in the moment. But I tried… I reminded myself of my blessings. I took another breath – I sat back and regrouped. Most of the time.
And now, here I am. This is that time… that time I thought about – the time that seemed SO far away. It was a flash. A blink.
And, I love it… I do. But, I am also trying to come to terms with the fact that my baby days are over. I know I do not want to go back there. That I’m sure of. But the snuggles, the baby smell…
…even the midnight feedings – those quiet, dark nights-so tired but so blessed to be alone, in peace with my tiny baby, looking into her eyes… those days are behind me now.
Many more beautiful experiences await us. And, I’m glad I didn’t wish ALL of the hard ones away.
So for all of you moms out there with little ones – when the times get tough, just remember – it really does go by in the blink of an eye. Don’t rush through or wish it all away.