Well the day has arrived. The day that I send my last child off to school. My heart was leaping and breaking at the same time. So many hours I spent worrying about how she would handle school… if it was the right choice for her… which place, which method, which option…
Back and forth I struggled with this issue for all of my girls. I want the best for them. I want what works best for us as a family. I simply want them to be happy.
Bree was so lucky this year to have a little friend who lives right next door who is also starting Kindergarten… and her bus stop is our driveway! Bree has struggled in the past with a lot of separation anxiety which made me extra anxious about how it would go. I wasn’t going to force her if she wasn’t ready… but I guess she just was.
Watching her sisters go off to school each morning surely helped. Maia started second grade this year… what a big girl she is now. She has a very nice teacher and one of her best friends in her class from last year. Her classroom is a cooperative class with two teachers and students that learn together in various groups.
My oldest is starting her Senior Year… can you imagine? How can I be the mom of a Senior in high school? And she is just such a good kid. I am so lucky.
Keira began middle school this year. She was so very excited that she woke up at 3:30 a.m. the night before and could not get back to sleep! We were up with the birds together and enjoyed a warm cup of tea before starting our day. She also has her best friend in her class (amazing) and really loves her new school.
So my girls began a new chapter in their lives… and I began a new one as well.
For the first time in a very long time, I was home – alone – in silence. I missed them very much… but I also felt that the solitude is much needed for me right now. Being a working mom from home is extremely challenging and requires many late nights awake so I can be the best I can be for my girls during the day. To be able to work while they are learning and then be fresh, ready and engaged when they return has felt very good.
A part of me feels so guilty for that truth. But, for our family … right now… it is working. I am open to anything the future holds.
Regardless of your schooling choices, I hope you too have a wonderful year full of learning and love.